On Sunday everything struck Kerri McGrath.
The next day, she ran the Boston Marathon for Project Joy's Colin, the chest that she and her husband, Brendan, started after his son, twelve years of age, Colin, killed last summer with a car jumping curb after a crash on the street, the stroller hit he was riding into. Their daughter was injured 4 years, Sloane, but she survived.
In the weeks and months following the accident, the goal is to complete the Boston Marathon she helped her in her sadness, as she and her own family gave a commitment to return to the Boston South community who supported them through their loss.
But everything she and her family did, and she was about to do, decided in the days before 15 April, she said.
“Sunday was a very tough day,” she told Boston.com two days after the race. “Sunday I cried as many were during the day. I couldn't pick myself up from the ground on Sundays. And I think that maybe just what needed to happen so that I could run 26.2 miles Monday. ”
She also said that the big result was that she didn't want to run the marathon in the first place.
“Orm Nothing wants me to do this tomorrow,‘ ‘The only reason I am doing this is that Colin has gone, '' she remembered her parents telling Sunday. “And it reminded us that it was gone, that we were doing it at all. I just wanted to think of other mathematicians that day, like anyone else in Boston city, and not to do so because our son is dead. ”
As the primary care doctor passed 39 years of age in Massachusetts General Hospital the 26.2 miles from Hopkinton to Boston on Monday with the rest of Colin's Project Team Joy, she said she could believe how many people came out on the course until they were praised.
“I mean every thousand, and sometimes multiple people in a thousand, someone was in Project Joy's Colin shirt, suggesting,” she said. “Some of them had no idea that they were there to see us. They were very impressed with us to see. We felt that we had supported and loved running through those streets. ”
Looking at everyone who came up to support the team – those who knew them and those she didn't know.
She said that “the last thing” is a reminder that she and her husband and daughter are alone.
“It felt great not to be alone,” said McGrath. “And while those days are there I can't pick myself up from the floor, people are trying to support us. I knew the next day that people would be out there looking for us. And that people out there would expect us to do it and that we would do it right. So I couldn't do it all. ”
She stopped at Heartbreak Hill. She was the only place in the race where she felt she was.
“I want to,‘ I don't want to do this, ”said McGrath. “I don't want to go up this hill. 'I didn't want me to race.'
Her sister and her next-of-kin stopped. McGrath said that they told her they were on her way all the way, and she said she had to tell them what she wanted.
McGrath said that she took a minute of herself.
“I want,‘ You have felt this way so many times in recent months. So, get up that hill, '”she said. “And so we did. And it wasn't nice. It wasn't nice. If you look at our times, we slowed down a lot in those hills. But I feel quite good about the fact that we did it. ”
Support groups, made up of friends and extended families, were marked on their lines on the lines by green balloons and orange so that the staff could see them. Four of them were Brendan and Sloane, and they were in the bleachers at the finish line when McGrath crossed with 4:59:59.
“I was very proud that Sloane got this,” she said. “And she could also be there with the whole family. She only succeeds when she is around the family, so she was so happy that day. And I think she could be very big, what we did together that day. ”
At every cheering station, the 4-year-old child had something to say to her mother, for example, “You're not good yet.” T
“It was so funny,” said McGrath. “And at the end she goes, im I'm very happy for you, and she said,“ Does this mean you can stop training now? ”
Even how wonderful it felt that McGrath would see her family at the final line, she said that she thought there was a difference between finishing the race and many of the runners.
“I went across the final line on Monday, but we haven't got a finish line for us and what we're doing,” she said. “So, in some ways, I was just out there running – because I've done many more days. And I run lots of days for Colin and myself and our family. And this is another day I did that. It was a bigger day in a million ways. But the same relief was not going beyond that finished line, I think, many others felt that the Boston Marathon was running that day. Because so much of our journey we have not yet done. And it is not disappointing. There was only realization. ”
On June 1, 5K will exist for Project Joy's Colin, McGrath said the last major event planned for fundraising. She said she and her husband are hoping to start planning how they will return, rather than seek donations.
“We look forward to this, as we don't want to raise money for the rest of our lives,” she said. “We promised everyone with whom we were going hard, that they would go hard for two years and then we would do the job. We are more successful than we would ever have expected. It will be a good idea to start and engage with and engage with our partners in opportunities. ”
They already have four projects planned, starting with two starting this summer through the City Parks and Recreation Department at M Street Park and the community yard adjacent to the accident.
Even though she hopes that these projects will take place, their approach comes at the same time as the fair end of the accident comes.
“What we have learned in this experience, during this trip, is that experiences can be so happy and sad,” McGrath said. “And nothing I have ever known before. For example, when you see Sloane happy to run around and play, it gives us great joy and regret, and we understand that it is being done without it. So, in my opinion, these outdoor play spaces will be very enjoyable and we understand what we have done in less than one year after going to College that it will be very powerful and special and that something is involved with his life. mean something. And it will also be devastating because our son is not there. "
McGrath said when Sloane asked if she could stop training, she said she could take a while but there would be more races there. It plans to run the Boston Marathon again in 2020 and has already heard from newcomers who wish to run next year for the Colin Project and in 2021.
The hope is that there will be people running for the Colin Team every year, McGrath said.
“Others are walking this walk with us, it's special,” she said. “And we think we have support. Feeling that, you are running through Boston city surrounded by people who want the best for you, I have never experienced before. And I wish I never did. But I know it now, and I am very grateful for that. ”