# Innocent
From the book Kalan Delhi Yatra Anthikad Via Anthikad By Kalan written by Innocent and published by Mathrubhumi Books…
OhLet me tell you the incident. The event where I saw God between life and death. That was when he was living in Delhi as an MP after falling ill and undergoing chemotherapy. It was a moonlit night. A figure passed through the corridor. I looked carefully. There is an avatar. The man said to me: ‘Don’t wake Alice.’ Then he asked me out.
I got up slowly. Walk with the avatar. We reached the balcony of the apartment. From there you can see the Senedd. You can see the glittering avenues from New Delhi. Allrupi asked me. ‘Do you understand me?’
‘Have we seen each other before?’ I know the counter question.
Then he said, “I have seen you.”
He continued: ‘I came when you had cancer.’ ‘I don’t understand,’ I finished. ‘I do not understand. When the matter is over, you will not understand yourself. I am God.’ I was shocked; The sleepiness is gone. ‘I came to talk to him a bit.’ ‘Let’s hear it,’ I said bravely. ‘The first time I got sick a candle was lit. And then you wrote a book about it, Laughter in the Cancer Ward. I read it and embarrassed myself. You have written information in it that stuck with me. I believed you when the candle was lit. That’s why I went to comfort you that day. Now I come away with a lot of realization. You held my leg when needed. Your wife, little boy. I gave them a chance to live thinking that they should not become orphans. In the old days when you took all the movies, I gave you sorrow to subdue: poverty. That’s how all your films flopped and you turned to a different path. I thought you learned from that. But, no. He is not a fast learner. That’s why we had to stop losing in the eighth.
He is good at organizing people. Convince them one by one. He has been at it since childhood. His education is 8th standard. He called himself. There is another sound within that shouting. We understand that. Because we have given you this form and this life. If we say we are God. You constantly talk about failure to show that you are so smart that you failed class 8. In other words, to show that those who were ‘educated’ are not great. We understand that. You keep repeating this. You can sell it in many speeches. ‘I’m a poor person’ in those words. But it is full of mockery.
You had a match business. It was made to take care of the family. There were 34 companies. Your elder brother left it all to you. You have done many treatments within that company. You have stuck to the central government. Can you say no? We know everything.’
I said, ‘I don’t remember anything.’
‘That’s what he said to Thilakan in the movie Than Kilukum. Calling it a pumpkin head…? I have a memory.’
‘So God will watch the film too?’
‘Yes, we will also watch the film. We have seen all his food. So you stuck with the central government.’
‘When the chances of the company moving forward started to fade… a little…’ I said.
‘Don’t tell me that. So while running all the companies and getting money for courtesy, you continued to say the movie and closed all those companies. You didn’t study when you had the knowledge to study. Did you cheat on your father?
Then when the municipal election came, you stood for election. We know why. Very few people in your country know. You were made to be something different from others. Then you said in a satirical way, making fun of the other candidates and those who stood. Two of your friends told you that you don’t have much education, so skip the election. Many people came here to hear it and to applaud. You became a councilor then. how is that There are no schools you won’t attend. All of them voted with their families. Now, do you understand who I am to say and know these things?’
I said: ‘Understood. God!’
‘Can I ask one more thing?’
‘Ask… Anyway, that’s it, don’t leave it like this anymore.’ His face was shouting that God did not understand my answer. I asked one more question in the group.
You are such a wonderful man. Is it enough for you to hire one to carry a simpleton like me? Hindus have? Who is one? Chitragupta!’
‘That’s the kind of argument you always make. That’s what brought you to where you are now.
You bought ten thousand rupees from a shetty in Davangare and said you will give it back. And didn’t he cling to it night after night?’
I asked, ‘How do you know all this?’
‘Do we know everything? When you gave him that money, when he sent someone to threaten you, the next day you went to him and said, I will not tolerate that. I have no shame. Did he not go home the next day and sell his father’s rubber estate to pay the debt immediately, and did he not get another two thousand rupees?’
‘Yes.’
‘Why did you do that?’
‘It’s going to go away.’
Did you return that money?’
‘Yes. he gave.’
‘But wasn’t there pride in your mind that you wouldn’t give it if you didn’t?’
I said: ‘If not, where can I put it?’
God said: ‘Then you squealed thirteen times saying ‘Mother’ – the ‘mother dog’ of the organisation. he became president. How many other people were there? Did he have to be himself these 13 times? He once said that I was leaving and that someone else should come and take over. And no one came! Then it means there is no interest in leaving the chair.’
I said, ‘I won’t say that. I said that. That he is ready to leave.’
‘He has made them all believe that I am the one for you and that I am ready to change. But the inside of the mind is not ready to change. He also convinced others that only he could carry it. Especially with that Satyan Anthikadin.’
I asked, ‘Do you know Satyan too?’
‘You know, he’s the one who makes it so bad.’
Not only did he become his mother’s president, but after he recovered from his illness, he made a speech about it and sold it! And, it is true that he got good roles in the movie. Some good characters that people like. Kabuliwala, Ramji Rao Speaking, Manasinakare, Ravana Prabhu and many other good films have him in people’s minds. That is true. It is also true that the people felt pain when they felt good. At that time came the parliamentary election. What qualifies him to stand for a parliamentary election? Has he fasted for the party? No! And then?
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That’s when he got sick. He wrote the book. All the politicians came to see you. Even with that disease, we’ll see you looking at the newspaper. Do you have a picture of Pinarayi Vijayan who came to see you yesterday? Do you have a picture of Oommenchandy who came to Mininjanu? Do you have a photo of Ganesh Kumar? MA Babi, Achuthanandan… You were enjoying all this with your heart. If they had asked why he had become like that, we had done that ourselves to relieve him of his illness and comfort him. Then Father Alencheri and Markrisostave all came to see you. By that his mind cooled that day. We are the people who read his mind. ‘Am I not a big guy?’ that His pride was increasing day by day. We know that he told his wife Alice that they did not come to anyone else, but to me. So we also thought it should stay like this for some time with this illness. If you come to see someone like this again…!
By then, his pride came out. I felt that there is nothing wrong with this disease. This is the road to fame. We’ve killed ourselves! Will there be people like this? After all that, he is told to wait for the election for a day. Until then, the person who was sitting on the armchair saying no to that food, no to this food, jumped up when he heard that he should stand for election.
Wherever you go during the election, people look at you, one with love, the other with pity, a person who has been sick and has changed. Didn’t you take advantage of it? Isn’t that how you won? As far as MP is concerned. The great thing is that. We were worried at the time. Considering why he got sick twice, he thought he would at least get better. He sold it and made money!
After that he delivered his speech as an MP. He also caught attention. He said a lot of good things in it. But given his past behavior, we doubt even that. We ourselves do not know what is right and what is wrong. I have read what actor Mohanlal wrote about him. Lal wrote that I have not caught him for so long. That’s okay. I, the Creator, have not really caught you.
This disease was changed from Dr. It is Gangadhar. It saves a lot of people. We also created that doctor. And why didn’t we punish him for changing your disease, he treats a lot of good people too. So some compromises have to be made in terms of disability.’
God continued to speak. ‘I’m not the only one above, there are Hindu and Muslim gods. Now they make fun of me because I have come here twice and returned empty handed. If you can’t get hold of someone like this, it’s bad. This is my third time coming! So let’s go. I can’t listen to their banter anymore. Besides, he didn’t believe himself.
Do you have any final words? Not in your penal code? In the same way, since the earth, I ask you for the last time, do you have anything to say?’ asked God.
When I heard everything, I said:
You (God) have come to take me away. I’m ready to come. But wherever I go, I want an important role. I am not interested in any of the other positions. But the custom is to sit in the place of the greatest man anywhere or I will not have peace. Even if I come up with you, there is no other situation. Maybe under me, maybe you too. Now you can decide if you want to take me or not. How old are you, 25 or 30, to think about this? I will give you 27 years.’
I still remember the words of God that came out when I heard.
God looked at me for a long time. Then he looked at the flat moon outside. I remained silent. After a while, he walked into the corridor without saying a word. Dissolve through the streams there and merge into the moon. Then, the moon seemed to me like someone’s cheeky smile.
