My insomnia started when I was nineteen.‍ It was an especially cold winter night.⁣ At the time, someone in my family‌ started cancer treatment, so‍ I spent many nights​ alone. Perhaps at‌ a time in my life when I had the most worries about the future, spending⁢ nights alone with ⁤a troubled mind was a good environment for staying⁤ up all​ night. After that⁢ year, when winter came, the number of sleepless nights increased. As time passed, my winters became longer. One year, I couldn’t fall asleep easily⁤ regardless of the season. On the rare days when I went to bed early, I woke up much‍ earlier than usual.

Insomnia continued ⁤throughout college. On days when I had⁤ morning classes, there were days when I would stay up all night ​and⁢ go to school. Even though I was tired during the day ‌and felt ​like ⁢I could fall asleep at any⁢ moment, when ⁤I⁣ was actually trying to go to bed, I would wake up wide awake as if nothing had happened. In the deep of the night when everyone was asleep, I would listen to music or watch dramas. When I listened to music, I⁢ would listen to an entire singer’s album, and when I watched a drama, there were days when ‍I would sit⁤ down and watch episodes 1 through 16. On those days, I would go⁣ to bed after​ the ​sun rose.

Lack of sleep leads ‌to fatigue, fatigue leads‌ to lethargy, lethargy leads ⁣to depression. At the time, visiting a psychiatrist was like a taboo, so even though I knew that my sleep disorder was serious, I didn’t even try to cross the threshold. I searched the Internet and tried everything that could help me ​sleep. I tried getting plenty of sunlight, doing sweaty exercise, and even trying various health supplements that were supposed to help me sleep, but they all failed.

After working, I felt it was too ⁣difficult to go to work and⁤ do my work after sleeping for two or three hours. So I visited a nearby family medicine clinic. MelatoninI was prescribed this sleeping⁣ pill. Melatonin is a type of hormone that regulates biological rhythms, in ‍this case, sleep ⁢rhythms. The reason why people say that they lose sleep as ⁣they get older is because the amount of melatonin secreted decreases. If ‍you search for the ⁢drug information, it says that it is used for “short-term treatment of insomnia in patients aged 55 or older with reduced‌ sleep quality,” and ‍I have been⁤ taking this medicine ⁢for several years.

Even if I take a pill containing melatonin, I don’t fall asleep easily.⁣ After taking it, I⁣ feel a little drowsy and feel like I can fall asleep after about 1-2 hours, but if I miss that time, I wake up again at almost the same level as when I didn’t take the pill. (I want to make it clear that this⁤ is not a side effect of the pill, but a personal experience after taking it.) When ‍I can’t fall asleep even after taking the pill at night, ⁢my mind becomes ​even⁤ more complicated. The time I spend lying in bed is a battle with thoughts that constantly advance. These thoughts don’t seem to stop at all. As my thoughts​ follow each other, time flies by and before I know it, the morning ⁤dawns.

By this time I had ‌given up on sleeping as much as other people.

When people around me tell me that I have ⁣insomnia, most of them try to find the cause by saying, “Aren’t you too inactive?” or suggest ⁤a⁢ solution by saying, “Try taking a⁢ warm⁢ shower before going to bed.” ​Anyone who⁤ has suffered from insomnia⁤ or other sleep disorders for a long ‌time has probably thought about the cause at least once and tried the suggested solution at ⁤least once. ⁤I don’t know if it’s because I’m narrow-minded, but the worries and advice I hear repeatedly ‍sometimes make me feel resentful, like, “What do you know?” ‍So‌ after​ giving up on quality sleep, I never showed it ⁤to anyone outside.

The reason I brought up the topic of insomnia again was because I was visiting ‍a psychiatrist for another problem – obsessive compulsive disorder to be⁤ exact – ⁤and naturally we talked a lot about insomnia. There were a few things I learned through my conversation with the doctor. It was that I had Obsessive tendencies are also a factor that interferes with sleep. One of them is the obsessive thinking that “I have to‌ go out tomorrow at this time, so I have to go to bed at this time at the latest”, which interferes with deep sleep.

Sometimes, when you are caught up ​in some thoughts – usually an inexplicable sense of⁤ anxiety that something bad has happened – and ⁢you can’t shake them off, that’s another‍ cause⁤ of insomnia. Once you’re caught up⁢ in a swamp of anxious thoughts, you can only fall asleep after thinking about the worst, the worst possible situations that could happen. It is said​ that many people experience insomnia or ⁤have worse symptoms in ⁣the winter, especially when the sun sets early and the nights get ​longer.

Lastly, in the⁤ case of young women living alone like me, there are many‌ cases of insomnia. I think this is a primal human anxiety, ⁢because falling asleep means being defenseless against bad situations that can happen to⁢ you. People living alone, especially women, can always be a little bit tense without knowing it. So in these situations, single women‍ who suffered from insomnia often⁢ have their insomnia naturally cured after marriage.

So what ⁤is the ultimate way to overcome ‌insomnia? Honestly, I don’t ‌know. But ⁢I can ​suggest Our attitude toward dealing with insomnia is to accept ⁤it. It is similar to the aforementioned sleep-giving, ‍but there is a clear difference, which is our mindset. It is⁣ not, “I ⁤am a person who cannot sleep, so I do not have to sleep.” “I can’t sleep yet, but that’s okay. I’ll ‍sleep when I can.”I think that is the right attitude to have when dealing with insomnia.

What do​ you usually do on sleepless nights? When you decide to sleep and lie

Breaking Free from ‌Insomnia: A New Perspective

Have you ever found yourself lying in bed, unable to⁣ sleep, and ⁤trying to force yourself to‍ drift off by closing your eyes tightly? Do you toss and turn, ⁢thinking about all ⁢the reasons you need to wake up early the next day? The more you obsess over ‌sleep, the less control you have over it, and the more it controls you.

If ⁢you can’t‍ sleep, try doing something you enjoy. Watch a movie, read‍ a book, or ‌engage in ⁣a hobby you love. Personally, I recommend reading a book, especially ⁣one that’s not a novel, but​ rather a book about economics, management,​ or a topic that ‍interests you. This can help you feel sleepy, just like you did when you were ​a student. Even if you stay up all night reading, the time you⁤ spend reading feels more valuable than lying awake, unable to sleep.

To avoid being controlled by insomnia, do what you want most, aside from sleeping. If you’ve struggled with insomnia for years, you⁢ know how frustrating it ​can be to​ lie awake, doing nothing, and then feel resentful when the ⁢sun ⁢rises. To make the most of your time, fill it with activities that bring you ⁣joy and fulfillment. Make time for yourself, and ​do what you want.

So, do I sleep well now? Unfortunately, I still struggle with insomnia. I take sleep aids, but there are still nights when I lie awake,⁣ unable to‍ fall asleep. However, my anxiety and fear about insomnia have decreased significantly. Since I’ve let go of the need to sleep perfectly,‌ I’ve been⁢ enjoying my time with others and making the most of my evenings.

My final advice is to not create grand tasks for yourself at night just because you heard this story. Remember that even ⁢simple ‍activities, like watching⁤ TV or doing the dishes, can make your time feel valuable. Don’t forget ‌to appreciate ‌the ⁣small things and make ‍time for yourself.

A sleepless ⁤night, with rain falling outside, and soft music playing in the background, can be a beautiful thing. It’s no longer‌ just a sleepless night, but a cozy time with yourself, a‌ time to ​relax and unwind.