‘Golden Counseling Center’ Song Min-ho. Photo｜Channel A broadcast captureGroup Winner Song Minho confessed that he was diagnosed with panic disorder and bipolar disorder.
Minho Song appeared with WINNER members on Channel A’s entertainment program ‘Oh Eun-Young’s Golden Counseling Center’, which was broadcast on the 25th, and consulted with Dr.
On this day, the worry that WINNER members brought up was “Members don’t talk about themselves.” Kang Seungyoon said, “Members don’t often talk about their hard work.
I’ve never heard any hard things from the members,” he said. “When it comes to idol groups, most of them promise to stay with their fans forever. But for our team, it feels like something is blocking it.”
Regarding the reason for the lack of dialogue, Kang Seungyoon replied, “It seems like it was from the beginning.” Lee Seung-hoon said, “I think it’s an inevitable fate. It’s far from being a friend, but close to being a colleague.”
During this process, the waiting room of the WINNER members at the time of the pre-interview was revealed. The members looked bright in front of the camera, but when the camera was turned off, it turned into an awkward atmosphere, and Song Min-ho kept his distance from the members and focused only on his cell phone.
Dr. Oh Eun-young, who watched this, said, “It seems to me that Min-ho is working hard. Min-ho’s condition is a bit difficult. If he normally gave 200 energy, now he is only 100.”
It’s not that Dr. Oh doesn’t like the rest of the members, it’s that his condition is difficult. He drains energy just by going back and forth next to him. They seem to be conserving energy by keeping a distance,” he said. “I think you may be misunderstood by looking at Song Min-ho, but I can see that he is trying not to adversely affect WINNER.”
Song Min-ho’s subsequent confession was hard to believe when he remembered his activities in various entertainment programs. Song Min-ho confessed, “I felt like I was going to die from the end of 2017, I couldn’t breathe, and I collapsed and died until I died. So I went to the hospital and was diagnosed with panic disorder and bipolar disorder. I am currently receiving psychiatric treatment.”
About the first symptoms, Song Min-ho said, “At that time, I was active in the music and entertainment industry with the great success of my first solo song ‘Wife,’ ‘New Journey to the West 1’, and ‘Kang’s Kitchen’. After filming, I went out and cried without anyone knowing. Life was like a tragedy when the camera was turned off. It’s hard to be alone at home.”
He said, “It has become a habit not to show my weak side. I don’t think I’m used to that because I don’t talk like that. It’s not that I don’t want to talk, but I think it’s true that I don’t have the courage to say it.” Still, he said calmly, “In a way, I want to talk with the feeling of ‘get to know me’. I don’t have the courage or confidence to say that yet.”
Song Min-ho was also worried, saying, “Others won’t be able to relate to my story.” When the production team asked, “Are you worried that it might sound like you’re full?”, Song Min-ho answered, “Yes,” and showed a tearful look.
Song Min-ho confessed, “I am loved so much, I have fans and colleagues, and I am a person who just needs to be happy, but I am very worried about what makes me so unhappy.”
He continued, “If other people knew about my situation, they wouldn’t be able to empathize.” When the production team asked, “Are you afraid I’m going to say I’m full?”, Song Min-ho answered yes.
The members were sorry to hear the deep pain of Song Min-ho, which they were not aware of. What is the reason Song Min-ho, who is recognized artistically and musically, suffers so deeply?
Song Min-ho said, “I’m in so much pain, so I try to find happiness by doing anything.” Then, he confessed, “I wondered how that would be possible if I heard that he was on the phone with a friend after work and was going to watch a movie.”
Dr. Oh said, “Dopamine is activated when you are engaged in creative activities, and when you are in a stable state after activities, you have to torment yourself again to release a substance that makes you feel pleasure, so you can’t always feel comfortable. Don’t forget that feeling. It is highly probable that he was looking for another pain similar to that.”
In a word, Dr. Oh judged that Song Min-ho was constantly chasing stimulation and pain, and Song Min-ho replied, “I think I was caught on too accurately.”
Song Min-ho said, “I’m always afraid of running out of firewood. I was surprised that he said exactly that.” Seunghoon Lee said, “Minho lives by saying he’s tired every day.”
Oh Eun-young said, “There is even one person who is meaningful to me, so it is very important that this person has feedback and influence.”
For the first time, Song Min-ho revealed a family history that he had not been able to confide in. Song Min-ho confessed, “Actually, I don’t think my family is the one I can rely on.” “I’m playing the role of the head of the family, so my family is very important, but it doesn’t feel like a nest where I can go and rest as much as I want.”
Dr. Oh asked, “Can you see them as responsible people?” and Song Min-ho answered yes. Song Min-ho said, “My father is a little ill. It worries me a lot.”
Song Min-ho said that his father’s health had not been good for a long time and he had been living in the hospital for a long time. He continued, “I’m still in the hospital, and it’s very difficult.”
In MBC ‘I Live Alone’, which was broadcast on the same day, he drew attention with a similar remark.
Song Min-ho, who went camping with Gian 84, enjoyed camping and became closer by talking deeply.
When asked by Song Min-ho, “If there is no happiness in eating, there is no soul,” Gian 84 asked, “What is the joy of living these days?” He replied, “The only way to gain energy and relieve depression is camping.”
When asked, “Are you happy when you work?”, he said, “I’m fine these days,” but he said he didn’t want to harm the team because of his condition in the past. Song Minho confessed, “Even if my condition is down, I don’t want to avoid it, so I have to forcefully raise the tension, but it didn’t work out because I was depressed.”
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